Sleepy Towns on Rainy Saturdays

I feel like it is so very hard to sit down at my computer in the summer time. So many things are going on right now and it's like if I sit down and start typing I'm going to miss something. However, I want to be able to look back on things and remember them.

This weekend Colby and I had a blast we went on a train ride through the Boston mountains. I had bought tickets for the two of us as our Valentine's gift, but you could only use them from April-October so we went this weekend. We had a great time since neither one of us had ever rode a train before. The conductor, however, could have talked the paint off the walls. I'm sure the reason he kept telling people to put down their windows was because he'd had a few jump. Anyways, we stopped for a layover in Vanburen, Arkansas- a three hour break so we could shop around this sleepy little town. It was raining so Colby and I decided to buy an umbrella. There weren't any places to buy such a thing, so we went into a thrift store and found three umbrellas. We decided on the rather large umbrella with Michelangelo's "The Hand of God" painting on it. Halfway out the door with our thrifty little purchase the handle fell off, and the rain stopped.


We also came across a FANTASTIC used bookstore. I bought five or six children's books: Stewart Little, Anne of Green Gables, James and the Giant Peach, Maniac Magee, The Indian in the Cupboard-book 1 and 2, and The Road to Avonlea.


I love finding fantastic things for fantastic prices!

Kitty

I feel like a horrible mother. I have a little Shih Tzu named Kitty. He's so sweet, and likes to prance around-hence the name Kitty. He's been having "issues" with his kidneys and we've been taking him to the vet just about every month. He's been passing a little blood and we were very worried about our baby. We kept thinking something else has to be wrong, because he'd get all of his medicine, but nothing was working. He was taken to the vet one more time because he started to pass a lot of blood and was trying to pee 20 times every time he went outside.

He ended up having bladder stones!! POOR BABY! He had one very big stone that was jagged. The nurse said he was a trooper. I can just imagine him gritting his teeth and cursing in his Spanish Accent that I know he would have. I'm a shitty mom.

Pretty Creepy..

My cousin, Joan, sent me a cool e-mail. You have a list of birthdates, and the tree that is supposed to correspond with the birthdate.

Here's my birthday: November 12th- The tree that is "my" tree is the chestnut tree. Here's what it says: Chestnut Tree (the Honesty) -- of unusual stature, impressive, well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, born diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit.

Its so creepy! Here's Colby's

April 4th-His tree : Rowan Tree (the Sensitivity) -- full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

I LOVE IT! SO SO TRUE...except for the not forgiving part..

Trouble with the R's

Tonight I bit my tongue, REALLY hard. Now I cannot properly pronounce my R's. I was telling Colby about this thing that I found about trees, but ever time I went to say Trees it came out Twees. Its horrible! Make it stop.

Rockfest 2006.......aka Boob Fest

So this weekend the whole gang went to Rockfest in Kansas City. It was absolutely crazy! We all went up to Kansas City around 1ish and it was blazing hot. There were 15 bands total from noon to 11ish. 36,000 people attended! It was so amazingly packed. We started off by going to see Nonpoint, and then we went back to the blanket we had on the grass and rested for awhile. Then we decided to go see the band Hurt.

Let me give you the events that took place:

• We went towards the front of the group closer towards the stage in the dead center. Colby and most of the guys were really close to the front, Lindsey and I were told to stay farther back so we wouldn't get hurt.
  
• Sergio, and some other person were standing behind us sort of like body guards.
• A group of disgusting individuals came up on our right, and wanted to see boobs. We said no, they wanted us to "earn our beads". They started talking about forming a mosh pit.
• I started to feel claustrophobic because everyone started filling in around us, and Colby wanted us to come even closer forward so we wouldn't be in the middle of the mosh pit.
• We ended up two people away from the gate around the stage, just about as close as you can get. Then the band came on stage.
• ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE!
• People were being launched in the air and I'm pretty sure two of them came right down on top of me. My industrial piercing was grabbed and I felt like it had been jerked out of my ear, that sent me to the bottom of the crowd.
• Someone crowd surfing knocked me down and one of Colby's friends fell on top of me. Jacob didn't know it was Colby's friend and noticed someone on me and proceeded to grab him and launch him off of me. Poor Heath.

Needless to say I got hurt watching Hurt.

Then at the end of the night we got to see Staind. It was so great. It had been smoldering hot all day and by this time it started to pour rain, it hailed, there was thunder and lightning. A perfect ending to a crazy day. I'll leave the steak and shake story for another day....

Rundown

Oh man, I feel like I've been gone forever! Sorry for not posting, but I've been so busy. Here's the run down.

Stori had her reception and for the most part everyone got along really well. I was so stressed out for this because Colby's parents came down for this 'special event' and It was the first time "really" that our parents were in a room with each other for an extended period of time. Colby and I have been together for 5 years and our parents are mingling! How exciting. It makes it really hard for them to sit and chat when they live 200 miles away from each other, but at least they all make the effort.

The Grooms mom got a little tipsy, but that's alright I suppose, she also hit on one of the younger guys, but we'll blame that on all the vodka....Huh Debbie!

Stori's husband, Kyle is now in Fort Benning, GA he'll begin bootcamp this Friday...Say a little prayer. He's really homesick and Stori's really bummin'. :(

is it odd that i think dressing like this is fun?

I said I'd post pictures of my sister, Stori's Wedding when we got them uploaded. Here ya go. These are pictures of the actual ceremony. We had so much fun. She's 7 months pregnant in the picture. I did say that I looked like a hooker, see for yourself.

Elvis has left the building...

Today while I was covering a lunch break in jewelry, I noticed a man by the sunglasses display. He was standing there looking in the mirror and combing his hair over, and over, and over. I was watching him for about 20 minutes comb his hair and pat, comb and pat...Then he put on the biggest pair of white sunglasses you could imagine. After about 20 minutes of this he left to go shopping. After the lunch break I walked towards the back of the store to take my lunch break when I noticed this couple just busting up laughing. Apparently this "guy" had been talking to them for about 10 minutes about how he was Elvis. I started laughing and said, "Did he have big hair and bigger glasses?" They said yes.

Believe it or not this man really thought he was "The King"! No one in their right mind could even compare themselves to Elvis. That's just something you don't do. Especially this guy. Here's the worst picture I could find, he was 20x worse than this impersonator:

Life After Breakup

I was talking a best friend through a break up this week and she was absolutely broken, I didn't know what to say to her to help her. I was wondering why it was that nothing helped, because I've been in a similar situation before.

Why is it so hard to move on? I realize the given, you were in love, or you were with someone for a long time and its a routine now...What do you do with your life after breakup? It's so easy for someone to say to you that they would move on, or forget about that person. But I know for a fact that what we say and what we do are two totally different songs.

You can never really know until you're in it, and sometimes when you're in something that you said you'd leave, you won't leave because essentially you're not really seeing the relationship from the outside. People find it so easy to throw in their two cents, *I've heard it all before- "It's easy to see when you're on the outside looking in, but when you're inside you tend to see what you want."

Why is it that *most girls seem to just grieve and grieve until they're absolutely making themselves sick? I've done it, I'm sure some of you have. You can't eat, can't sleep, are walking around like you've lost everything you have. Why do we waste so much time crying? Men seem to be very good at hiding their feelings, when they're young that's what we instill. Big boys don't cry. -So they don't.

I realize this is a big rambling- I've had a long day at work, and I'm sleepy, but I had a lot of time to think about it. My dad always gives such great advice he would tell me, "Char-Marie, take it from a guy who's been there, done that." I never would, I guess I like to learn the hard way. We never want advice unless its what we want to hear, when I say we I mean...Me, and maybe a few of you reading this.

I'm not sure where this post is going, so I'm going to go to bed and think about this some more. I'll get back to this later.

It's a Nice Day for a White Wedding.

This weekend we traveled down to Eureka Springs, Arkansas to get my little sister, Stori, Hitched!

No seriously we really got her hitched. We went to this old time place and dressed up like people that worked in a saloon. I looked like a Class A hooker. I'll post pictures when I get them developed, in the mean time I'll just describe my outfit:

I had on all the essentials:

• White bloomers with lace trim...Check!
• Fishnet Stockings.....Check!
• Black High Heels........Check!
• Corset.........Check!
• A push up brassiere tied so tight around me I couldn't breathe....Check...!

It really was a blast, we had so much fun. I had my picture taken with Colby as well, I'll post that as soon as I can.

So?

Ok, I got creative and tried my hand at creating my own template. The only thing I hate is the size of the font. Its way too big. I cannot seem to find it in the html to change it, so until then it shall remain very large...bleh!

I would like comments on what needs to be changed, or what looks good.

Thanks!

*&%$#@%

I am absolutely drained. I know I say this a lot, but I'll say it again.... I REALLY DISLIKE MY JOB! The problem is right now I cannot quit because they have allowed me the time I need off for this summer: Weddings, Graduations, Baby Showers, Wedding Showers, Baby Deliveries, etc... As soon as I can I'll be searching for a better job. One that's less stressful. For those of you who don't know I work at Wal-mart. It's pretty much a sweatshop. I'm so aggravated, because I do my job I am constantly taken from one area to the next and it is so frustrating for someone who likes to get one thing done before she starts another. At the end of the night I end up having 30 'irons in the fire'.

I am physically drained. Emotionally drained. I told my manager, the one that is nice to me, that I was tired of working my ass off to be taken advantage of. He agreed with me because he sees that we're *Hollie and I* are being shit on.

I hate the fact that I get so pissed, I hate that I can't be respected for the good work that I do, I really hate the fact that I get aggravated enough to let it come home with me. It's not like me to be on edge because of a job. I'm going to take the initiative and look elsewhere even if it means a pay cut.

Plans

Last night Colby and I were talking about the Peace Corps again and decided we'll have to sign up within the next month. I'm stoked. I'm really excited about all the things that we have lined up for our lives. We've been discussing all the possibilities:

1. Join the Peace Corps and teach for two years in a foreign country.
2. Go to grad school. Prospectives right now are Washington University in St. Louis, or KU in Lawrence, KS.
3. Living under a park bench in Central Park.

All great choices if you ask me.

Bleh.

Ehh... I went to bed last night at 11:00 and I woke up this morning at 11:00. I'm coming down with something, its a chest cold or something. WHY?! I have so much to do that I cannot afford to be sick! My sister is getting married this weekend, and I CANNOT get sick! I feel sick in the morning and I feel sick in the evening. When I'm up and around during the daytime its not that bad. Blah.

I woke up this morning to Colby's call, good thing because I have to be at work at 1:00. I got up and got some leftover cold pizza out of the fridge, then sat on the couch and watched rat race. I love that movie it makes me laugh. Laughing hurts right now. eck.

They even had rubber stamps!!

So, grades come out tomorrow and I'm excited to see what I've got. I know it'll be good, not the 4.0 I had hoped for, but I know I'll make the Dean's List. What happened to me?

Colby and I traveled North towards KC to see his parents and brother. Jacob, Colb's brother, graduated this weekend! YAY JACOB! We were discussing the fact that next year we'll be the one's graduating....Again. I'm absolutely excited to start our lives. I feel right now that I'm just on a routine schedule that has me doing the same things day in and day out.

I'm so excited about having my own classroom! I'm collecting books for my library as we speak. If anyone has any children's books to donate---Send them my way! ;) Thanks. I walked into a educational supply store a few days ago and was amazed. I went straight to the back where all the stickers, books, HALL PASSES (I can't wait to have a hall pass!), markers, those border thingys that you put around your bulletin boards---THOUSANDS OF BORDERS! I asked Colby if when we get engaged if we could register there. He shot that idea down, but it was worth a try. I feel like I'm thinking more and more like a teacher every day. I see cute little artsy things and wonder how I could use that in the near future.


I'm stoked!

Truth or Fiction: Men Turn Into Werewolves On A Full Moon?

I need some input on this subject ladies, and gents... Do you think moods change when it's nearing a full moon? Think back, the thirteenth was a full moon. Did you, or your significant other have mood swings on the 11th - ?? This mood swing doesn't have to be relationship altering, but enough to notice something wasn't quite right.

The reason I'm asking is that I have a good friend who tends to have 'boyfriend issues' right before the full moon. It may sound silly, but it's sort of erie. Things tend to happen right before we're about to have a full moon. You can definitely notice it at wal-mart, customers tend to be on edge, and the slightest thing can throw them off. You always hear that a hospital is in full swing when its a full moon...

In this case my friend's boyfriend tends to go into this weird funk right before the full moon and it lasts a little afterwards. Now this may be numerous things, but we were just thinking about what it could be and a lady at work said a full moon is out. She finished by saying that her boyfriend or husband was in a funk as well. My friend then noticed that her father, and her brother were in bad moods. We started rolling this thought around and I thought I'd blog about it and see if I could get any comments on what people thought.

Do men, or anyone for that matter, turn into werewolves when there's a full moon?

My 100th Post.

My kid sister, Stori, came to see me today before my finals. She was shopping here in Springfield, and wanted to show me things she had picked up. A baby mattress for the crib, maternity clothing- because she's finally getting too big for my clothes..And she's 7 months pregnant. She broke down and bought something Winnie the Pooh: Socks.

I'm extremely excited to see baby Maggie Marie, or Mag Pie as I like to call her. My sister is getting married next weekend. As soon as she gets married her husband, Kyle, is being shipped to Ft. Benning, GA for boot camp with the Army Rangers. I have been dubbed person who is in the delivery room, and I'm stoked. Be prepared for tons of pictures of Little Miss Mag Pie.

I'll be the one doing late night runs this summer for Ice Cream and Pickles.
Would you look at that belly button....

Finally

FINALS ARE OVER!!! I couldn't run to my car fast enough. I was afraid I would run into someone who would drag me into one of the buildings and make me write papers on How the west was won, or something to that effect. I'm stoked, first order of business.... SELL BACK MY BOOKS (for a fraction of the cost.)


Update: (May 17, 2006) I've sold back my books it was definitely a fraction of the cost. It cost me 350.00 for my books this semester, and I got a measly 58.00 back. I guess its $58.00 I didn't have, can't complain too much.

PB&J

Mmm. It seems to me that I mainly blog about food....well....Thats because I enjoy it SO much! I just had my brain food: Peanut Butter and Jelly. I also had a nice cold glass of red diamond sweet tea. Does the body good. I'm getting ready to take the last two finals of the semester! I'm so stoked. SUMMER HERE I COME!

Summer Summer Time.

Well, I finished the final I was really worried about today. It was a breeze. I'm so excited for summer time, I can't even think of all the things I want to do. I'll buy some TV season to watch. Not sure what I'll buy though. Colby and I started watching Lost and I loved it, we're waiting for the second season to come out. I thought about buying either House, or Six Feet Under. Maybe I'll buy both.

I have so many things on the schedule for this summer. Colby's brother Jacob graduates next weekend! We'll be there for that. Then memorial day weekend my little sister is getting married! I feel SO old! The weekend after that she's having a reception. I have a friends wedding I'm in. I have to have Stori a baby shower, and I'm going to rockfest in June. This, I'm afraid, leaves little time for me to read the 50 books that I have lined up. So much to do. So little time.

Pancakes.

This morning I woke up and made pancakes for Colby and I. This brings back a very fond memory of mine.

When I was younger, my best friend Lindsay and I were always trying different things like

1. Inventing new shampoo using various household materials, then using my little sister as the test subject.
2. Messing around with her chemistry set, and almost killing the whole town with our "lead water."
3. When her little brother was on the way, we decided we would create him a state of the art carseat. For this we used: an old car seat, a handle bar from a bicycle for the safety restraint, and some old rope to keep it in place.....Do not try this at home.
4. We also tried out an old bottle warmer, convinced that it would work and sat in the car for hours waiting for the milk to warm up. It warmed up, just not like we planned. Its a wonder we didn't short out something and catch the van on fire. Her mom was not pleased with this one.
5. One night we wanted to stay up all night long so we decided to grind our own coffee... Without a coffee grinder, and no coffee beans. I think we ended up making something else that tasted awful!

But this is the story that the pancakes bring me back to. We woke up very early one morning with a fantastic idea. "Let's not wake up your parents, and lets make breakfast for everyone!" We decided on pancakes, I think we were in fourth grade...not sure. Anyways, we started making the pancakes, then all of a sudden one smoke alarm went off...Followed by another...And another.. *How many smoke detectors did you have Linz? We were running to each one and fanning with pot holders. One would go off and we'd run to the other, then that one would go off and the other would come back on. This went on for what seemed like forever. Her mom ran downstairs only to inform us that the pan was now on fire. How we caught the pan on fire, I'll never know.

This is not how I made pancakes this morning. Everything went smooth. Until Colby tried to see if I was doing a good job. He wanted to see if the pancake was ready, so he flipped it. He flipped it like you see in movies and it landed on the counter. Who's the cook now?

Books.

I'll have to admit that yesterday while sitting in Barnes and Noble sipping my cinnamon dolche latte, doing homework, I stereotyped someone. I know that you should really try not to do that, and I really try not to.... Here's the story

I was sitting in Barnes and Noble, like I said, and watching people...because that's what I do. I think you can learn a lot about people by what they're reading. *I was working on lesson plans reading Three Little Pigs. What does that say about me? I looked up and saw a man with motorcycle clothing and thought, he is probably reading about cars or motorcycles....I was right. Then I was looking at a young girl, she was drinking coffee, wearing all black and dark makeup...My thoughts were she's probably reading 1. A romance novel, or 2. A book about dracula. She was reading a romance novel. So I thought, hey, I could do this all day long!

I then see an Amish man walking towards me, I think to myself....I bet he's reading something about construction. WRONG! I look up and he has a huge stack of books and the top title was, "Big Book of Dirty Jokes." I'm not going to play that game anymore.

I felt like a horrible person, but I laughed a little inside thinking of all the men working outside, and this particular man throwing out all these dirty jokes. :)

Cheetos Make the World Go Round

I finally.....FINALLY finished all the things that are due today. I was up until about 3:00 a.m working on my project for my health class. I figured it would take a whopping hour, HA, 5 hours later I'm lying on the floor despising my health class. I am stressed to the MAX! Every teacher has piled something on at the last minute and I'm drowning in papers.

Last night Colby helped me SO much! Have I mentioned that he's wicked cool? He hates seeing me stressed out, and when I stress out I cry. I was so tired, and on top of everything else... If you looked at me wrong I started to cry. The gluestick broke, I shed a tear. How sad.

All I have now is study study study....I'm down to 3 more classes for finals and I'm OUT!

I'm currently finding comfort in cheetos....Yes, I know they're not on the "diet", but they're on My Diet. Just until finals are over, then I'm putting myself back in check. Until now, cheetos and french onion dip have my love.

I Knew We Needed Rain, But....For The LOVE!

Man....

I was startled awake last night around 1:30ish by a HUGE clap of thunder! I love thunderstorms, but this one was so loud! I thought the apartment building was coming down. By morning the rain had ceased, and I woke up to study a little before class, then I left for my final in my Special Education class. I think I did pretty well.

By the time I got out of the final it looked as if it were going to rain down from the heavens again, but I had my umbrella handy. I went and turned in my books, and got a whopping $20.00 for a book that cost me about $70.00. In came the monsoon! It was raining so hard you could barely see anything. I was driving along and had to go turn in some late books that cost me oh....$30.00 *The University is making a FORTUNE on late fees!!!! Definitely off of people like me who happen to forget everything...and books, movies, anything that needs to be back by a certain date are always at least a week if not more...late.

So I jumped out of my car with my trusty umbrella and headed towards the library. The wind was so hard it flipped my umbrella inside out and needless to say, I was absolutely soaked. As soon as I got back to my car, the rain had stopped again and now its sunny....Go figure.

Damn Missouri weather.

I NEED COLOR!

Fellow Bloggers/Readers,


My blog is in desperate need of a face lift. I'm not up on html...well just a little. I want something Fun, Flirty, Spicy, Girly. I'm so bored with the templates. If anyone is listening and would be so kind to walk me through changing it, or if you get bored you could just work something up. I would be so thankful.

Thank you

Char-Marie

Diet, What diet?

Ah yes, I thought I would make lunch today for Colby and I. I'm actually getting better with the time management thing, and I'm proud of it. It does help when the bag you're cooking from tells you exactly what time to take your frozen delights out of the oven.

Diet?.....Diet you say, well we fell off the wagon and are rolling down a very steep, very rocky hill right now. Here's the deal, as soon as I can breathe again from finals being taken care of, I'm going back to the gym. Scouts honor.

I took this picture while I was making lunch, Colby just looked at me and I had a feeling he was wondering what the hell I was doing, so I replied, "Honey, the public have a right to know that we're sticking to our diet." He says, "But we're not." I reply, "Exactly." How very sad this is, but it was so GOOD!

Without Further Adieu..

Today is the day that I kick my homework in the ass! I'm going to work my lil' butt off until I have most of it accomplished. I admit that last night I thought I needed a break so I went to the Fox and shot pool. I'm actually getting FREAKIN Awesome at it. I'm still procrastinating ... Should be doing homework, Colby just informed me. I'm very very ready for finals to be done!

Today's list to get done:

1. Finish the report on the interview with my dad.
2. Write up three lesson plans
3. Make a trifold presentation for my 'health for educators' class.
4. Finish the children's book- Island of the Blue Dolphins, and write a report on it.
5. Finish The Devil's Arithmetic and write a report on it.
6. Study for my final on Wednesday.

And much more, but if I continue to write them down I'll get overwhelmed and puke.

Talk About Baggage.

So today I was making out a list of all the things I need to get accomplished for this week to turn in, I didn't realize that I had SO much to do!! I'm pulling hair out over here! I just have to count to ten and breathe, because if I don't I'll probably explode, or maybe I'll implode...?

I was at work tonight and Hollie and I discovered some luggage that went on clearance. It was a four piece luggage set, and it was priced at 99.96 and it was now priced at 36.00. I couldn't pass it up, although I'm not going anywhere now, I will go places. I'm bound and determined. I told Colby he could take it with him to Hawaii this summer if only he promised to leave it out on the beach for a few days so when he got back I could sit next to it and smell Hawaii while sunning on his balcony. I'm sure we'll get some good use out of it.

I must be getting old if luggage excites me...

Spontaneity killed the cat.....

Happy Cinco De Mayo! Colb, Corey and I went to Cileto Lindo tonight and had Mexican food mmm...

Then we decided to get Corey's tattoo, the longer I sat there the longer I wanted to get an industrial piercing. I've always wanted one, but it was so expensive because its two piercings. Usually it cost 80 dollars to get it done, at Miller Cotton's it cost 40. SOLD! I got it done. As I was lying down so I could be skewered the last words he said before he stuck the huge needle through my ear was, "You're going to bleed like a stuck pig."


I did. I could feel the blood running down into my ear. Ahh the rush. ;)
I didn't even flinch...Is this normal?

Exhausted.

Today I give a presentation for my Dad's interview. Colby and I put together a movie, and although the audio doesn't match up with the picture during the end, it still works. I think it's a pretty good presentation. We've worked on it for three days and it's only 16 minutes long. I'm sleepy. I just got out of bed and always have to have my time where I sit and just chill before I decided to jump in the shower.


Corey's down from KC and is going to register today for classes down here. Colby, Jacob, and Corey are going to be living together so they've been trying to get that in order. Tonight we're going to my house to have grilled steak, and everything that comes with it. I'm already hungry.

Message For My Guardian Angel:

It has been a very stressful week/day and it's only Tuesday. I called home today to find out how everything was going and talked to my dad for about ten minutes. He was still in bed, but contemplating getting up. I told him he needed to get up because it was such a nice day and with this Missouri weather we're having who knows when it could start pouring. He told me that he would and that was the end of our conversation.

Later on I received a call from my mom, about our computer, and how dad couldn't find something on it. I told them where I thought it was, and then later called them back. My dad had a "little" nervous breakdown and I'm not really sure why.....Was it the computer, was it life....Only he knows. It's really hard to see him going through all of this. I feel sometimes like I'm having to be a parent to him, and it's so overwhelming. I'm so worried about him, will he ever get out of this hole that he's sitting in? I love my dad more than life itself, and I love my mom for sticking with him every step of the way. I have the best family in the whole wide world, I just wish we could go back to how we were. Dad always working or messing with something around the house, Mom always running back and forth between house stuff, yard work, fish pond, dogs... Stori and I coming in and out of the house. Everyone was happy. It seems like anymore all the phone calls made are consisting of, "How's dad? Is it a good day or a bad day?"

Lately they've been bad days. More bad...Less good. I know that we have angels watching over us, I definitely believe in guardian angels. I'm asking right now for mine to watch over my dad, because he needs it more than I do. I just want him better so bad. I want my old dad, the one who's always joking, always smiling, always eating ice cream.....I need him to come back, because it's sad without him.

Umm Hi....Hello......

So i'm sitting in a computer lab trying to get things done before class when this girl comes by and just about knocks me out of my chair! She just plowed her way through. EHHH! I wanted to throw my hands up and say, "Ummm Hello......Yeah Hi, I'm actually sitting at this computer, so could you please charge your way though that aisle." She about knocked the glasses off my face!


So yeah, i'm still procrastinating. I don't know how i'm going to get all the homework done, I work every day! Last night I had a minor melt down, but Colby was there to say we'd get it done. What a wicked cool boyfriend I have.

Summertime and the Livin' is Easy!

Wheeeew...............I'm SO STUFFED! I made enchiladas tonight! I'm becoming a regular Betty. I'm enjoying cooking, and I think Colby's enjoying eating my cooking? I'm about to explode in all of my procrastination glory!! I'm ready to be done with school. I'm so looking forward to this summer.

Things I want to accomplish this summer are...Thus far:

1. Lose 10lbs. I'm working on that currently, but I want to be able to look good and feel better.
2. Yoga Yoga Yoga. I need to go back to Yoga!
3. Reading! I have lists of books to read: The Cement Garden, The Virgin's Lover* I'm already half way through with this one, Finish A Million Little Pieces* Even if he was lying in most of it! The Chronicles of Narnia, The Davinci Code, Wicked.....There are plenty of others. I Also need to look at some books for my Children's Library. I'd like to start getting some chapter books built up. I have lots of picture books, now I need chapter books. I'd love to have Where the Red Fern Grows, Possibly Boxcar Children, Chronicles of Narnia...etc.
4. Maybe get some pigment to my skin...?
5. Buy a fantastic pair of shoes! Running shoes, and kitten heels, Sandals....You name it! Can I really count this as a goal for summer???..... Of course I can, It's my summer.

This is just a very few small things I'd like to do. I'm so excited summer is just about here!

Just A Reminder To Myself, So My Head Doesn't Explode!

I need to get a few things accomplished before finals arrive, which is very very close.

1. Write a five page paper on No Child Left Behind, and take a side. (for or against it)
2. Make a presentation on a trifold board for my Health for Educators class.
3. Finish all my quizzes for Reading.
4. Write a paper for my Combats Memoirs class on 'How I perceived my interview with my dad.'
5. Finish the presentation for my Dad's Interview
6. Write up my self evaluation for my Reading 421 class. Have the kindergarten teacher fill out her final evaluation for me.

I think that sums up all of the BIG things that I need to get done. I hope I'm not forgetting anything, I'm so stressed out! I NEED A MASSAGE .....And some oreos!

Everybody knows...Pimpin' Ain't Easy

I work at an At Risk school, and the other day while I was hanging out with the kindergarteners it started to rain. Really hard. So we had indoor recess. Every teacher's nightmare! They were crazy. So there are a few different centers and only four children can play at each center at a given time. I was hanging around the legos center when a little boy said, (they never get my name right.) "Ms. Casey LOOK!" He had made a man and a dog out of legos. I looked at them and said what an awesome job he was doing....he replied and I quote, "Ms. Casey, They're pimps. A pimp dog, and a pimp man. Yo YO!! They all pimps, i'm a pimp....you a pimp...." (Getting the picture?)

I couldn't help but laugh. What the hell is wrong with people? I'm not really sure whether or not he knew what a pimp was, but he had been exposed to everything that goes along with it, like:

1. The pimp walk..... You know the slouching
   
2. The pimp grab..... The grabbing of the "Hommies, Boys, Cash and Prizes"
3. The signs... He threw his hands up in front of him with two sidways peace signs.

He's in KINDERGARTEN! He was playing with another little boy at the lego table. This little boy was making a wall complete with windows. 'pimp boy' as we'll dub him, kept telling the other little boy to put eyes at the top of the wall so it could watch the pimps.

Did I miss something? Is there now a class called Pimps 101...? Yo YO!

A Musical Meme

This Meme was taken from linz, who stole it from Wendy. I loved it!

Put your music player on shuffle.
Press forward for each question.
Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.

1. How am I feeling today? "Danger Zone" Kenny Loggins

2. Will I get far in life? "Start A War" Static X
3. How do my friends see me? "One Headlight" Wallflowers

4. Where will I get married? "Hero" Sevendust
5. What is my best friend? "Stay With Me" Rod Stewart
6. What is the story of my life? "I Wanna Rock and Roll All Night" Kiss

7. What was high school like? "Beer for my Horses" Toby Keith
8. How can I get ahead in life? "Hit the Ground Running" Johnny Lang
9. What is the best thing about me? "Your Body is a Wonderland" John Mayer
10. What is today going to be like? "Runaway Train" Soul Asylum
11. What is in store for this weekend? "She's Not There" The Ventures
12. What song describes my parents? "Pink" Aerosmith
13. To describe my grandparents? "No Woman No Cry" Bob Marley
14. How is my life going? "Winter Kiss" Embodyment
15. What song will they play at my funeral? "Oi to the World" No Doubt
16. How does the world see me? "Where the River Flows" Collective Soul
17. Will I have a happy life? "Making Memories of Us" Keith Urban
18. What do my friends really think of me? "Midwest Swing" Nelly
19. Do people secretly lust after me? "Praise" Sevendust
20. How can I make myself happy? "Let's Go Fly A Kite" Mary Poppins SOundtrack....ok I love disney stuff..
21. What should I do with my life? "Heirate Mich" *Marry Me -- Rammstein
22. Will I ever have children? "Sweet Emotion" Aerosmith
23. What is some good advice for me? "Friends in Low Places" Garth Brooks
24. How will I be remembered? "I Want You to Want Me"
25. What is my signature dancing song? "Get Stoned" Hinder
26. What is my current theme song? "Cranking the Sirens" Soilwork
27. What does everyone else think my current theme song is? "Break Ya Neck" Busta

"If you're happy and you know it......Grit your teeth."

Today my classes got canceled so Colby and I decided to go out and about in our big ol' town. First stop a billiards place. We had to go see if the shaft for his pool cue was in, turns out it was back ordered. Then I asked if we could go to the place where I got my nose pierced and look for another nose ring. So we go in, we're browsing, the lady tells me not to change if for a few more months- I said, "ok" through cringing teeth. Colby sees a pair of plugs for his ears that he would like to purchase. They're a 4 gauge and his hears are gauged at a 6. For any of you who are not familiar with the process of gauging your ears basically its this:

• You get your ears pierced at a very small gauge, but its a higher number like an 18 is a small hole a 0 is a HUGE hole.
  
• Colby decides to get the earlets that are gauged at a 4.
• The outside of the earlets are gauged at a 2.
  
• In order to get the earlets into his ears he has to ultimately go from a 6 to a 2 which is a HUGE difference.

End result: Colby's ears are bleeding, he keeps saying, "Whooooooooo," sort of like a whoosh sound. He almost passed out as the man tapered them into his ears. Completely lost color in his face. But they just look so damn good! I'm sure the pain was worth it....haha
He just ran over and asked me to, " AHHH IT BURNS Blow on it!"
He's now singing "If you're happy and you know it......Grit your teeth."

Little Miss Mag Pie

So I talked to my momma today, and my poor little sister has a bladder infection. She had to stay home from work, and is in a whole lot of pain. I guess that her back started hurting a couple of days ago, and she couldn't figure out why so they thought maybe it was the baby stretching and moving around. Come to find out it was her bladder because she was violently throwing up all morning. She's lost one pound and one inch around her stomach. They did an ultrasound to look at the baby, and little miss Maggie was sleeping with her hands under her chin. Aww....The life.

Yet Another Choice For Our Future.

Ah yes, Albania... This is another choice for Colby and I. #3 choice for the Peace Corps. And This picture could be Colby and I later on in the traditional garb. I find it very sexy. Here are a few fun facts about Albania:

1. Borders the Adriatic Sea and Ionian Sea, between Greece and Serbia and Montenegro.
2. It is a little bit smaller than Maryland.
3. 70% of the population is Muslim.
4. 3,581,655 population estimated for July 2006
5. There are currently 1.1 Million people who are using cell phones.

Loved.

Sometimes I find myself missing my Grandma, and my Uncle in the worst ways. Every now and then I'll catch myself remembering little phrases they used to say and it stops me in my tracks. They aren't significant things that changed my life, but little quirky things. When I'm at home I always open my closet before I go to bed and grab my uncles shirts and bury my head in them. It reminds me of him a kind of smoky smell. Sometimes it's the little things we don't want to let go of. I remember my Gran's smile and her laugh most of all. I was walking in wal-mart the other night and passed a night gown on a rack, and it reminded me so much of her--she always had these long cotton night gowns with flowers on them. I caught myself walking by that same night gown again tonight and running my hand across it.

Every time I see my dad it reminds me of my uncle. If I'm feeling this way, I can only imagine what he's going through. My grandmother's house used to be so gorgeous. Every year she would plant at least 400 tulips and they were so pretty, the biggest tulips you've ever seen. The tulips that she last planted are almost gone, and the ones that did bloom are very small. Sometimes you wonder if her home is grieving too.

I've just really had one of those emotional days. Sometimes I just break down, that's how life goes. The picture was taken 1 day before my Gran died, and 6 months before my Uncle Daddy passed away.

To Boob, or not to Boob.....

Yesterday while I was minding my own business at work, I stumbled upon a woman breast feeding her child in the middle of everything at Wal-mart. I know I took a double take, because it really caught me off guard I mean it was like: candy, candy, something shiny, box on the floor, small child, boob, sunglasses......BOOB!

I don't want to offend anyone, but here's my opinion on it. If you are going to breast feed your child, which I find nothing wrong with, and you have to do this in Wal-mart and refuse to sit in the fitting room *in private* put a blanket over your shoulder to shelter the exposed boob. I myself, could never do that in public, and if there were an emergency, I definitely wouldn't whip em' out right there in the open. I happen to consider breast feeding as a pretty intimate thing, and why would you want to be displaying it for everyone to see-IN WAL-MART of all places, but I digress.

The point is, I was shocked to see this in Wal-mart. When telling this to my friend, Fred, she said, " Well, I would happen to think that Wal-mart would be the place you would expect to see something like that." I guess I agree, just caught me off guard.

Miraculously Large Thighs

Colby and I have decided once and for all to begin our diet. Last night we went to the grocery store in search of 'healthy things' to eat. I find that if you go around the edges of the grocery store you're more likely to find the good things, if you walk in to the heart of the store, you're in trouble. I kept seeing little things and saying well, what about this if we get this and only eat it some of the time...then it won't be so bad, huh? Colby shot down all of my ideas. Then I walked by one of those bag o'cookies and saw the peanut butter ones, the word miracle something was printed on the bag, and I said, "Look, see it says miracle.....something...!" and Colby shot back with, "Yeah, it's a miracle she fit into those jeans! Or, Miraculously Large Thighs! It's a miracle she's still walking!" I got the point, and so we went about our 'healthy food adventure'. After all was said and done, we walked out of there with:

• Water
• Rice Cakes
• Dietary Supplements
• *I got Slimfast
• and I may have slipped in a snickers, cause when you're hungry...Why wait?

It's going to be a long summer. I'm going to starve to death!

See this is my problem- I love to eat, I would eat all the time if permitted, and even when I'm not hungry I want something, when I see others eating-I want something. I would be a very depressed girl if I had to drink my meals. Uhh! I eat very slow to savor every last bite, because I'm never sure when Colby will come in and say, "Alright Char-Marie, that's your 12th Oreo....I'm cuttin' ya off!"


Goodbye Oreos, I'll write.

FAMILY FUN DAY!

Here are a few pictures from today! It was our "family fun day!"

Kyle, Stori, and I. Look at her bellah!

Me right before I launched the ball all the way in the corner of the yard, not on target at all! Have I ever told you guys that I was supposed to play ball professionally? The Yankees call me all the time, finally I just told them "Listen guys! I told you that you couldn't afford me, STOP CALLING!" They continue to call...

Happy Easter!

Nothing says Easter like a chocolate covered peanut butter egg.. mmmm.... Kidding.

I've had such a good day today. First off, I had to work at 8 in the a.m until 5- that wasn't the good part. I came home afterwards and got to hang out with my family. Everyone was here, except Colbin-who's hanging out with his wicked cool family. We're so lucky to have awesome families. I spent all night blowing bubbles for Ewan, and the dog was very fascinated with them as well. We spent a good hour trying to throw a dog ball *large softball* into a garbage can from a distance, whoever got it in won 5 dollars! 5 dollars is like half a paycheck to me so I gave it my all, and failed horribly. You might as well have told me to aim the farthest you can from the garbage can cause that's where it landed EVERY TIME! I enjoyed taking pictures of my sister, and her every growing tummy/booty. I love the fact that her butt is expanding because all of our lives she's been ultra skinny and I've been the sister with the butt.

In the picture I almost dropped her twice. She's getting a little hefty.
Once again I'm procrastinating. I have tons of homework so I better get to it.

And So, A Rockstar Was Born...

Tonight, while I was at work, It got very busy and I was called up to the checkouts to cashier. The night was just dragging on, I hate checking because #1. It's not my job. #2. I'm not getting MY job done. #3. I have to deal with customers over and over and over.

So like I said it was a very boring night. Later on in the evening I had a customer come through with two teenage girls, about 13/14. While I was checking, I noticed the two girls looking at me and talking to each other. My initial thought was Oh great, my nose ring is hanging out and looks like a silver boog! When the girls noticed that I was watching them talk about me, one piped up and said, "I love your necklace!" relieved that it hadn't been a boog I said thank you. Then they just started spouting off things like, "I love your hair!" "OMG look at her glasses! Did you know that your glasses have zebra print on the inside?" I shook my head yes. One girl even jumped up and down because she was having a fit of joy that my glasses actually had this on the inside. She jumped and clapped her hands! Then one said, "Look at her shirt! I like your shirt." at this point I laugh and say thanks. The other said, "That is actually two shirts, that's hot!" Now I'm cracking up because you would think I'm some huge rockstar or something. I almost said, "Would you like an autograph? Oh, and on Friday I need someone to do my laundry, I'll actually let you touch these hot clothes."

So it would be nice to have little girls at wal-mart to follow me around and fall down over my every action. Tell me how nice my hair is, that my outfit is the absolute coolest, and that yes, my glasses are indeed the coolest glasses out there. What a lucky girl I am. Wonder if I could hire them?

I've Got Sunshine On a Cloudy Day.......

Woooohooo! Today my class was canceled and I don't have to go to work until 4:15 tonight. It is 84 and SO nice out today. It's really amazing how good the sun and warmth makes you feel. You really see it in everyone, except..... The lady who was helping me with my fabric today. I had to go this morning to get some fabric for a dress that I have to get made, because I'm going to be in a wedding in June. This lady was NOT nice! I've never had a dress made for me or dealt with fabric, or measuring myself, etc.. This lady didn't seem like she cared all that much about it. Besides, she had a mustache......*that wasn't nice-my bad. (true though)

So anyways, like I was saying: IT IS SOOOO NICE OUT!!! I went shopping this morning for some shorts for tomorrow, because Colb and I are going to Silver Dollar City! I feel like a little kid...And I love it!

Workin 9-5....What a way to make a livin'

I know I post a lot about my job, but I've really been having issues with them lately. They now tell me that after 3 years of working there that I can no longer wear jeans, that I have to dress up. I argue and ask what's the point, I'm always on the floor in the dirt. I do not want to pay lots of money to get khakis or nice pants just to ruin them. Being that I'm so tall, I can't walk into wal-mart and buy pants, I have to go to the mall so they're long enough, which means they cost more. Plus just to really piss me off they've told me that I can't have my nose ring, not even a clear one, I can't even cover it with a band-aid.

It wouldn't be such a big deal, except I don't like working there anyways! I would love to find a job somewhere else. I need to for my own sake, because I'm becoming a not nice person. That is driving me crazy. I know I shouldn't be sarcastic to the people, even if they're mean to me. That's not my style anyways, but I feel I've been pushed to my breaking point.

Time to start looking for another job.

Are you out there?

This is just a shout out to my friend, Mark. I haven't heard from you in a while and I had a horrible dream about you last night! CALL ME, or comment.

Lions, and Tigers, and Bears.....OH MY!

This afternoon Colby and I decided to go to the zoo. The last time I had gone to the zoo was about 4 years ago. I was so excited. It was such a beautiful day and I can't think of any better way to spend it then swatting at mosquitoes and trying to get the mountain lions to fight. It was great. The little monkeys were putting on shows, at one point in time there was this blonde colored monkey and he had a dandelion in his hand and he was just looking at it and pulling off petals he loves me, he loves me not....He loves me.... Then he stuck the whole thing in his mouth and kept looking at his empty hand with such sadness, he loves me not... They've really added on to the zoo since I had been there last. Lots of new animal enclosures. Colby knows I'm terribly afraid of birds, so he tried to get every bird he saw: (peacocks, geese, ducks) to chase me. I would have ran like a little girl.

Now Colby and I are headed to see Slither, I've heard some really good things.

Ice Cream, and Xbox....Who could ask for more?

Last night, like every Thursday night, I go home to see what's kickin at the home front. The FAM had been doing a little switching of the rooms, and painting of the walls. We always end up watching survivor on Thursdays, because...Well... That's just what we do. Then it's CSI, and Without a Trace. I started falling asleep on the couch after CSI. Everyone had gone to bed, and then I was wide awake. I try to keep myself occupied while I'm hanging out alone, so I listened to the rain and watched the lightning, then I looked at some pictures, and then I thought I'd just give in to sleep. After I washed my face and brushed my teeth, I noticed that my dad was still wide awake watching t.v.

I couldn't just let him lay there awake to think, so I did what anyone would do. I used his weakness to drag him out of bed- Ice cream! I said, "Are you going to lay there all night, or are we going down to sonic to get some ice cream?" It was 11:00 and he thought they would be closed, but I assured him they'd stay open for us. So he jumped out of bed, you didn't have to ask him twice. He asked mom if she wanted us to bring her something back, and she was sound asleep. Off we went to Sonic at 11pm to get some ice cream, me in my pajamas, and dad with his breathe right nose strip and slippers. I got a rootbeer float, and dad got a chocolate sundae, complete with a cherry on top. I asked him what he'd like to do now, because the night was still young, he said he had two xbox games he'd been dyin to play.

There you have it, one of the best Thursdays a father and daughter could ever have: Ice cream and video games! We drove race cars while eating ice cream until after midnight, then we slept in until 10am....

It's a nice day for a WHITE WEDDING!

Alright, after Colb and I had this conversation I felt the need to share my boyfriend's crazy imagination with you. *Ahem*

Colby told me of this dream he had and it's very vivid.

Its starts out that I propose to him, which I've seriously been considering, and he says, "yes" The wedding is the next day. We are in some place in India and there are little mud huts everywhere. We say I do, and then everyone breaks into song and dance. This is where I chimed in and said, "so our wedding is going to be a musical...Ok, I can handle that." While everyone is breaking it down in the cobblestone street, Colby notices two tigers stalking a fence line looking at us. He said he seemed to be the only one who was scared. Then all of a sudden some tiger pounced on some woman in the alley way behind us. He told me in, I assume in his best Stephen Seagull action hero voice, "Char-Marie, run-Save yourself!"

While I'm runnin for the hills he is off to a magical castle complete with witches to get a magical dagger to kill the tigers with. It just so happens, however, that another witch is wanting the same *blue icicle dagger* as well. Colby gets it first, but she ends up stabbing him in the gut, but only a little. He, out of nowhere, stabs her with the blue icicle dagger, then pulls out a sword he just so happened to be toting as well, then he stabs her with the knife in his gut. She's dead. He comes back to save the day with his magical dagger, just to find that his kick ass wife has already taken care of business, and I imagine she didn't even break a sweat.

Friday Fill-in:

1. Where oh where did I put my...... White shirt, with lace on the bottom. It's strange, but every time I go home to do laundry the dryer seems to eat some of my favorite things. *Ahem Stori...
2. I'd rather be.....no where, but here. I'm hangin out with the wicked cool boyfriend *Colbin* we just got done eating at Texas Roadhouse..We totally gorged ourselves-it was SO worth it!
3. My hair is.... fantastically curly. Colby goes crazy when I don't dry my hair because its very curly, he loves it. Soon Colby's momma, Mary Beth, will be doing a treatment on my hair to make it straight for months...No Chi straightener required. Enjoy it while it lasts Colb.
4. I'm such a slacker I really need to be..... Working on my homework, lesson plans, and reports. It's so easy to say, "Ehh, I'll do it tomorrow!" Tomorrow always ends up being the day before it's due, I work well under pressure.
5. Oh boy! This weekend should be...... Great, Colby's taking me on a date Saturday! We're going to have sushi and listen to live jazz. I'm STOKED!
   

Wondering.

Is it just me, or does it smell like fruit loops after it rains? It has been raining all morning and after my kindergarten class I walked out and it smelled just like fruit loops....I love the smell of fruit loops.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Today is that wicked cool boyfriend of mine, Colby's BIRTHDAY! He's 22 and has finally caught up with me for a few months anyways. Colby I've been with you since you were 17 and have only missed one of your birthdays, I promise to never miss anymore. I love you so much and hope you're having a fantastic day! MWAH!

Love

-C

Self Portrait

Self Portrait
Originally uploaded by Char-Marie.

A view from the mirror in our hotel room in Kansas City, right before we hit the casino and walked away in shame. It was a great time, I'd do it again!

The little things...

Oh the little things we take for granted like washing our faces without screaming-because you hit your nose, or scratching our noses and not being worried, or blowing our noses without the thought that it could be disastrous, and just earlier right before I sneezed I had this vision of my nose ring flying out of my nose, and pegging some old woman in the face---how awful would that be?!

Thinking

There is just something about burger king chicken fries! I love love love them. They take me back to when I was younger and babysitting my sister during the summers, we'd make chicken strips that tasted just like them...well.....sort of.

Jeez Louise......

I just registered for my classes this morning and I have to take 7 classes next semester!!! I cannot even imagine 7 classes and they are all scheduled on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday! I would have liked to spread them out a little, but they're all block classes which mean they were already set up for my major to be on those specific days. 17 hours of school a week, 35 hours of work, and somehow the world does not stop spinning. I'm so close to student teaching it's crazy. Soon I'll have to start planning for the "real world", as my dad likes to call it. I'm so worried that work will drop my grades, because these are my last classes before student teaching and they're VERY important. *just breathe

Spontaneity

The boys and I decided to go to kaleidoscope and buy Colby some new earrings, and get Corey's earring fixed. Just like that I decided I'm gonna get something pierced! So, I did. I pierced my nose today! It was so much fun, it looks really cute and it hurt for a split second, and now it only hurts when I laugh. I have to hold my nose if I smile or laugh because it pulls and that stings a bit. Now I'll have to deal with going to work where piercings aren't allowed, I'll possibly have to wear a tiny band-aid on my nose. I also work in classrooms with little kids, I'll have to deal with that too. It was very liberating.....Everyone should try it!

Surprise!

For the past few months I've been planning a fantastic surprise for my wicked cool boyfriend, Colby. Last night it went according to plan. I threw Colby a surprise birthday party and it was so much fun. I told him that I was taking him to dinner the weekend before his birthday *April 4th- When we got to the restaurant-(Millie's- Turn of the Century Cafe) the waitress took us to the patio *which I reserved, and as we turned the corner everyone started singing Happy Birthday it was great. Everyone did such a good job keeping the secret for this long, and he was so surprised! Dinner was excellent, and to top it off I had invited his brother Jacob, cousin Corey, and might as well be brother-Nate. That put the icing on the cake. Thanks everyone for keeping it a secret and showing up for the surprise!

That's Life.

Today I'm totally drained. Life is really catching up with me. I'm running around trying to get everything done. I've spent time studying, taking tests, driving back and forth from MSU to an elementary school that i'm working with. Searching for a parking space... Searching for a parking space....Searching for a parking space. I worked with a school nurse for two hours this morning and now i'm supposed to be studying for a test in my combat memoirs class.

I'm ready to take a nap. I'm in a funk and I hate that. Not because of school or the day, just things. Little things that make their way under my skin and even though I hate myself for it, I can't do anything to make it stop and make that feeling go away. You know how you can be having a perfect day and then poof you see something, or you hear something and it completely drops you and even though you know it shouldn't ... it still does. That's today.

A Must Have.

I recently stumbled upon a fantastic thing, that I think needs to be in every woman's bag o'tricks. I absolutely love it. It's Smith's Rosebud Salve. On the back it reads: For chapped skin, blemishes, diaper rash, and detergent burn. Honestly if it can help aid diaper rash think of what it can do for your lips! It's fabulous! I use it for my hands and for my lips, and when i'm really feeling froggy I put some on my cheek bones to make them shimmer a bit. Try it, I know you'll love it!

Kansas City Venture

Kansas City was fun. We had a good time, we went gambling ate at very nice restaurants and just got to really hang out together. We walked the plaza and window shopped, basically we planned our vacation around places to eat. When we went gambling we spent fifteen dollars each and played penny slots for about three hours, it was so much fun. At one point in time we were each up a little bit of money- the alarms went off and Colby won fifteen dollars, I thought we were millionaires, I screamed and jumped up and down, even winning two dollars was exciting. I guess i'm easily pleased. While driving I saw this billboard and thought it was fantastic! The rest of my pictures are posted on flickr.

Friday Fill Ins :

Taken from Lindsay who stole it from Erin, who took it from Megan :). Thanks Ladies.

My next pet will be named.... Atticus. I would love to have a dog named Atticus or Sprockador-*the dog from fraggle rock.* I loved fraggle rock when I was a kid.
This weekend I plan to.. Well, this weekend has already passed and I spent the weekend in Butler with Colby's family. It was a blast as always. We had a good time, just hangin out watchin movies and eating until we could eat no longer.

Breakfast was... Breakfast was excellent! Mary Beth is an awesome cook, we had ham gravy crescent rolls, and eggs. Mmmmmmmmmm.

Last night at 8pm I was..... Sitting next to Colby's dad, Bryan, watching a movie and eating homemade pizza *again big shout out to Mary Beth.* Thanks Bryan for handing my drink back and forth back and forth.

I deal with stress by..... Crying. I end up having a melt down every so often and I sometimes just burst into tears. Thanks Colb for dealin with it as well as you do.

I forgot.... That I had so much homework, and a test on Tuesday!

Who wants cookies?!

Tonight I was going through the cabinets desperately looking for the two boxes of macaroni and cheese I know that I had bought--when I stumbled upon a bag o'cookies peanut butter cookies, you know the kind... you just add some lovin and poof you have cookies. Well...I decided I had to have these so I went to wal-mart to buy some eggs and came back to bake my delicious peanut butter cookies. I poured the cookies into bowl and ohh the smell was so lovely it was so lovely until I noticed the that the expiration date 2003! My first reaction was to cry, my second was to yell for Colby and ask him if we could still make them. He thought we had better go back to the store and get some more, so off we went. Now I know what you're thinking--Why didn't she just make them from scratch? --well I asked myself the same question..and then laughed for thinking it because I already have trouble with cookies from the roll, I burnt the piss out of my bicep....I'm sticking with the roll o'cookies.

We came home with a roll of peanut butter, and a roll of chocolate chip. Let me tell you there's nothing like peanut butter cookies at midnight. Mmmm I even made the criss cross with the fork and sprinkled love on them.

Woohoo.

Spring break has officially started. Colby and I went to help out my dad yesterday, we've been remodeling and are getting ready to sell a few things. We slept in today until 11! I cannot remember the last time I actually slept in--that late! It was great, then we got up and ordered a pizza, I took a shower and off to the salon I went. I got a french manicure, a massage, and my hair cut and styled. I desperately needed that relaxation. I came home and vacuumed and swiffered. I love to swiffer, it makes me think of the commercials--she looks like she's having so much fun.

Tomorrow we leave bright and early for Kansas City! I'm stoked. I just hope its not freezing! Ahhh one week off, it's already going by too quickly.

Messing with the camera.

Char-Marie
Originally uploaded by Char-Marie.

Tonight while I was sitting in front of my computer I started snapping photos. This happened to be one of the "better" photos taken. There is however a not so flattering picture of me on my flickr page. I was caught off guard and Colby tells me that it's a face he see's often. I'm a little offended..

Craving.

I would love to have a strawberry-banana smoothie right now. Borders has the best smoothies ever!

Little House on the Prairie.

Right now i'm waiting in a computer lab until my next class, which will be held in a one room school house. A one room school house?-you say. Yes, that's right. Today i'll Little house on the prairie it up. This 'one room school house' is complete with the very old wooden benches/desks, cups for your ink pens, big paintings of George Washington and Abraham Lincoln, and a bell that you ring to let you know school's in session.

I have to walk up hill both ways to get there too!

Shoes.

Are these sandals that I picked up today-not the cutest things you've ever seen?! I think they're absolutely adorable. Little miss Maggie is going to have a wide selection of shoes-as should any girl. I'm so excited about being an Auntie! We'll go shoe shopping EVERY WEEKEND! And when she's old enough i'll give her a pass *sort of like a library card* that allows her to check out some of my shoes....*Just like the library - Late fees do apply.

I was looking at Lindsay's Blog and decided...Why not?

Your Aura is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

What Color Is Your Aura?

Spring Break.

Colby and I have decided we're going somewhere after all. We decided last night that we're going to go to Kansas City and stay near the plaza. We'll go to the Nelson Atkins museum, a photography museum, the zoo, and where ever else our hearts desire. We're staying two nights there and then we'll head down to stay with his family for a couple of days. I'm so stoked! A vacation, a very desperately needed vacation! WOOHOOO!

I was thinking about possibly wearing a skirt while we're there, and for those of you who do not know me- this is a really big deal- because I never wear skirts. The only way i'll wear one is if I go and get a mystic tan, and i've never had one before so i'm scared that i'll turn orange... We'll see. I bought the cutest pair of shoes that will go with a very cute skirt!

A relief.

For the past few weeks i've been in and out of the doctor's office. Recently I had found a lump in my breast, and it continued to pain me and spread. This made me worried, so I made more appointments with the doctor. When it was confirmed that indeed the lump had grown, I had an appointment at the breast center at St. Johns.

This week i've been a nervous wreck, wondering what it could be and all the possibilities. Colby has been assuring me *I love him so* All the praying and thinking positive paid off. I went to the doctor this morning for a mammogram, and ultrasounds- everything turned out ok as far as they can tell. It turns out to be fibrocystic disease-which really isn't a disease at all. It's common in women over thirty, and since i'm in my early twenties we need to keep an eye on it. Needless to say i'm very relieved and so is everyone else.

I knew it!

Although, I'm not going to fall for someone new this year, I fell a long long time ago. You Are Most Like Carrie!

You're quirky, flirty, and every guy's perfect first date. But can the guy in question live up to your romantic ideal? It's tough for you to find the right match - you're more than a little picky. Never fear... You've got a great group of friends and a great closet of clothes, no matter what! Romantic prediction: You'll fall for someone this year... Totally different from any guy you've dated.

Which Sex and the City Vixen Are You?

I lost the bet...

3 months
Originally uploaded by Char-Marie.

Today my sister and I went to her ultrasound appointment to see whether it was a girl or a boy. The votes are in and it's a *drum roll please........* Its a girl!!! We're so excited! I can't wait to have a chubby little girl to take around with me. She'll be so spoiled and i'll laugh because the minute she cries i'll hand her back to her momma! The baby seems to be perfectly healthy so far so good. It was absolutely precious! She kept putting her hands in front of her face and turning her head. It is such an amazing thing to see- I'm watching the ultrasound and looking at Stori, then looking at her belly and I cannot imagine having a little someone in there wiggling around. I already think she's precious and i've yet to really see her face.

I cannot wait to be an Auntie!!!!

No means No in Español.....

This definitely surpasses anything I've experienced at Wal-mart. Today I was asked to help a Hispanic man in his early 40s. He was trying to find a shovel handle, so I took him out to lawn and garden where we keep the shovels....And we didn't have any handles. When I tried to tell him(in the most broken Spanish you've ever heard) that we didn't have shovel handles, he grabbed my arm really hard. He really latched on to my arm and started to jerk me towards him! My hair fell into my face *due to him jerking me forward* and he was trying to move my hair away from my face so he could *get this* KISS ME!!! He was pulling me towards him, I was screaming NO! *No is a universal word---HE KNEW WHAT THIS MEANT! Yet he proceeded to jerk my arms and when he finally realized it was not going to happen-he kissed my arm and I jerked free and started walking away...*a very fast walk*

This was SO scary! The guy left marks on my arm, and was very strong. I thought about pushing him, kneeing him in the junk, punching him, but I knew that he was a lot stronger than me and we were the only two people outside in lawn and garden. The audacity of some people! I don't care if he couldn't speak English, he knew what he was doing was wrong!

Express lunch my A$$!

I would like to say this because it may make me feel a little better. If you're planning on going to lunch today, and you're on a schedule-don't go where I went. It took forever. I'm not so sure that the guy serving us knew he was at work. At one point in time he came over to our table lifted my purse out of the seat next to me and sat down because his legs were tired. Then he took my drink and asked what I had and said he'd be back with a refill....i'm still waiting for it. It took 30 minutes for him to write down what we wanted to drink another 30 to write down what we wanted to eat and forever to get our 'Express Lunch'!!

Ok i'm better now.

At least it wasn't on fire?.....

Ok, another Wal-mart rant... This happened last summer when I was answering the phones. I had just recently had knee surgery, and was bound to a stool answering the phones at the fitting room. I was minding my own business when this lady with NEON PINK hair walked up to me and threw a bag in front of me. I was so not ready for what she was about to say. She looked around to see if anyone was listening and then said this-"That bag has SHIT in it!" I know my mouth must have hit the floor. I just looked at her with this confused look on my face and said what anyone in my situation would have said, "What?!"

"It has shit in it, I was looking through it and stuck my hand in it. WHY DON'T YOU PEOPLE CHECK YOUR BAGS?!" At this point i'm laughing at her and I can't really control it, I look at her and say, "Well ma'am we don't normally have to check our bags for that." She stormed off leaving me with the poo poo bag, only to come back and say this: " And it's in my FINGERNAILS! I'm going to sue Wal-mart. My children saw this, and i'm so embarrassed...." blah blah blah..... I ask her if she'd like me to call a manager and she storms off Neon Pink hair, 6 inch nails and all.

I'm not really sure what kind of poo had contaminated the said-bag.....but it made for an interesting day. By the way, before you go rummaging around in bags/purses at Wal-mart you may want to put on gloves.

Confessions of a Wal-Mart Employee....

Ok---I know that I talk a lot about good ol' wal-mart here, I have no choice- This is why:

I'm working at the registers because we were busy and there weren't enough cashiers. This man walks up to me and I say, "Hi." He replies, "No I'm not, do I look high?" I look at him and bag his items.... I say, " It's $3.43." He holds out a five dollar bill and I reach for it as I grab it, he pulls it back. So I laugh thinking *I'll kick you in the face if you don't let go... He starts to hand it to me again, and again I fall for this HILARIOUS game we're playing. Ok sir it's $3.43.... again he pulls away the money----I shot him a look so good that if looks could kill he would have died many many times.

I turn to my drawer get the change and he finally lets go of the 5..... WHY! Why do people have to act like this? Do you think it's cute? I laugh and speak under my breath, but it really really irritates me. I've been standing in one spot all day long hearing BEEP BEEP BEEEEEEEEEP....Grabbing, turning, grabbing, turning. I feel like I'm in the twilight zone when I'm checking, my feet hurt, my back hurts, I have a major headache, and if you don't let go of the money I'm liable to rip off your arm and shove it into my till!

*deep breaths*

In war, there are no unwounded soldiers.

(Picture of my Dad in Vietnam.)
Last night I met my parents after work, and I had an interview with my dad. I had mentioned here. It's an interview with a veteran from the Vietnam war and its all on camera, then it goes to the Library of Congress. Last night I got the privilege to interview my dad for this project. I am so proud of the things my dad had to do and endure. A couple parts of the interview I thought I was going to break down, but I held it together. A few things he just told me flat out, "It's not something I want to remember, I don't really want to talk about it." He left out some things because he didn't want us to hear some of the cruel things that happened over there.

Here's where I rant:

I've been keeping up with the news and this is really really bothering me. A church from PA is picketing the funerals of the soldiers killed in Iraq, holding up signs that say: "Thank God for Dead Soldiers," and " You're going to hell." If it were my family who went over there, and lost their life in something that they thought was the right thing to do---and someone was picketing their funeral, you'd have to throw me in jail. It makes me so angry..A young man from Joplin, MO died last week in Iraq and they've said that they're coming to picket his funeral as well. They just stand there with these crazy grins on their face, screaming all of these horrible things while the family is mourning the loss of a loved one. In my eyes--how can they call themselves Christians??

I sat and listened to my dad talk about how he was treated when he came home from Vietnam. He was spit on, called a baby killer, a war monger. Three people tried to run him over when he was walking on the side of the road with a cane--trying to get home because his dad was dying of cancer. He went over there thinking that he was helping those people a little by maybe letting at least one married man stay home with his family, thinking that America was behind the soldiers...Maybe not the war, but the men who HAD TO go. He said, " They said that we were the lucky ones, that we were the one's who came home. I think that the lucky ones were the ones who didn't come back because they died thinking that America was behind them, that they were being supported. This may be cruel sounding to you, but a lot of us feel this way. I'm still very bitter over seeing our troops come back and be treated worse than animals."

There are people who don't support this war going on right now, but we should support our men that have enlisted and are on hand waiting to defend us. It doesn't directly affect any one of us if we do not have someone over there that we love. We're fine and safe in our homes, but those men, whether they enlisted when 9-11 happened or have been a part of the military for years and years, are in my eyes the bravest of individuals, willing to risk their lives so we don't have to. I'll thank them for the rest of my life.

Set Sail with Captain Morgan!

Last night was fun. Hollie, Heath, Stori, Colby and I all went out to eat sushi at a local Japanese restaurant. We had a blast! Heath had a party at his place and everyone except yours truly was drinking. I was taking care of the Colbster. ;) like I do. We had a good night. My friend Hollie was tanked....Hollie rarely drinks, but when she does...LOOK OUT! You're liable to hear anything come out of that girl's mouth. I'm known as the "historian" of the group- I run around with my digital camera and get everything....You wouldn't believe the dirt I have on some of these people....Everyone has to be nice to me cause I'm very capable of posting the pics on the internet...Sort of like the one's that I just posted on flickr.... ;)


Isn't he lovely?....I took him home with me.

Bummed.

I'm pretty bummed out. It seems that Colby and I are not going to Chicago after all. The place where he works had someone lined up and if that person worked for the job Colby could have gone, but the person hired backed out at the last minute...We're not going. I'm sad because Colby and I never really get to go anywhere together, we see each other in passing it seems. School and work are full time things, and so I was looking forward to not having to do anything for a week except spend time with him and scout out Chicago. I guess there's a time for everything...Someday we'll go. We'll just have to go get a pizza and hang out around here during springbreak. I'm sure we'll make the best of it.

Good Day Sunshine!

Good day sunshine
I need to laugh, and when the sun is out I've got something I can laugh about
I feel good, in a special way
I'm in love and it's a sunny day ---- (a little ode to the Beatles!)


Yes! It feels so good outside. It's supposed to be 82 degrees today, yesterday it was 78, and I HAVE THE DAY OFF!!!! I'm excited. I have to go to my class, then i'm going to jack around for the rest of the day.... It's such a great day for the lake....HA! Who am I kidding, i'd first of all never step into a bathing suit....Second of all, I'm scared to death of fish...

So I guess what I'm really trying to say is.... its a great day to go shoe shopping. :)

Who you gonna call......?

Ok, I would like a show of hands....Who of you out there truely believe in ghosts? * my hands up*

The reason I ask is that our house is now occupied by my Uncle Daddy. I think is awesome! It's not a scary thing, because we all love him and he loves us, so we know it's not something to be scared of. I am concerned, however, that he may not have crossed over.... I don't know a lot about these things, but I've been trying to read into this a little and as far as I can tell.. Ghosts don't move over until they've finished a task, they feel guilty about something, they don't think that the family is ready to part, it was so sudden that they don't know that they've passed. Personally I think it's because my dad and uncle were twins. The bond was so huge that I don't think one will go without the other. Give me some feedback.....

My mom saw my uncle walking down the hallway and into my room. I feel like i've seen him in the hallway too, but it was dark....maybe I just felt it. Or maybe I was dillusional....could be either or.

Ehhhh.

Well, I had to take a test today. The essays went pretty well, but I think the rest of the test is a completely different story. I'm just glad I got it out of the way. I'm just waiting for my chicken patty to get done, I'm STARVING! I went to a vending machine today and put in my money, I really really really was craving cheetos, but the machine kept telling me to pick something else.

"Char-Marie" it said, "You really don't need cheetos, so pick whatever else you want." I got really aggravated because I thought I could get my money back and go to the other machine with the glorious bag of cheetos...not the case. It was holding my money hostage! So, I broke down and bought peanut butter cookies--you know the kind that Grandma makes. Anyways, instead of my normal brain food of cheetos and mt. dew, I had to settle for peanut butter cookies, and grape juice.....

I'm going back to yoga tomorrow....Mark my words!

Romania.

Alright, I'm back with another choice. Colby and I are so excited about doing this. We're pulling for our families to start saving their money NOW so they can come and stay with us to see what we're doing. Anyone else is welcome to start saving now as well. ;) Here's our next pick: Romania! This is a picture of Translyvania, Romania scary huh!

Stats for Romania:

1. Location: Southeast Europe
2. Borders:It is bordered by Ukraine and Moldova in the northeast; Hungary and Serbia and Montenegro in the west and Bulgaria to the south along the Danube River.
3. Politics: Romania is a democratic republic
4. Religion: Christian Orthodox-86%
5. Language: Romanian-Romance language.
6. Climate: Temperate-Cold winters, hot summers.
7. Capital: Bucharest
8. Population: 21,800,000

Fun Facts:

1. Holidays celebrated are: Christmas, Easter, National Woman's Day, New Year's, Mărţişor, and they're starting to celebrate Valentine's Day.

2. Vampires are believed to hang around crossroads on St. George's Day, April 23rd, and the eve of St. Andrew, November 29th. The area is also home to Bram Stoker's Dracula. OOOooooo.....

3. Romanians have a tradition of drinking a shot of tuica before a meal. It is supposed to help with digestion.

4. Mamaliga ‑ a cornmeal mush, Is the Romanian all purpose staple food. Hot, cold, fried, it is delicious in melted butter, sour cream or yogurts, garnished with salt herring and cottage cheese, or eaten with eggs for breakfast, and added to meat dishes.

Well, what do you think? Do you think I can live without my sushi, fried potatoes, and macaroni and cheese?

Misc.

Man... I didn't set an alarm, and now i'm going to have to miss my class....;)
I have this crazy ringing in my ear....can you hear it? Anyways, last night Colb and I went to the fox, like every Sunday. We had a lot of fun--I had my game face on last night. I was on Fire! Ok now i'm going to go eat some cereal..FRUITY PEBBLES!!!! mmmmmmmmm